The anniversary

My one year anniversary was amazing. When I walked in to the hotel room with Jackson I noticed a room covered in red rose petals and a bed with two long stem roses outlining the shape of a heart. It was a gorgeous room and Jackson got me a really lovely present. He bought me a asilver bracelet with a little silver bead that has a diamond on it. I couldn't be happier. He said that you can get more beads to go on the bracelet.

We went out for dinner and the meals were really nice. Jackson had a seafood pizza and I had pork with vegetables. The we romantically shared a piece of flourless chocolate cake. Truely delicious! He paid which I thought was really nice. Although I'm all for splitting the bill or one paying one week - the other the next; I'm quite traditional when I say it's always nice when the guy pays. It's such a nice guesture. Especially because he wasn't doing it in an unpleasant manner or to get something out of it. He just wanted to take me somewhere nice out of the kindness of his heart.

I really love Jackson. I think this anniversary was really special and helped heal our relationship. With the fighting and nagging that has been going on between us every now and then... well a littel more frequently than that; some time escaping from it all when we were both on our best behaviour was just what we needed. It's like we had open wounds that were just sitting there, not healing but somehow getting worse and we have put a bandage over those wounds. I know that must sound stupid, but it's true. When you keep fighting and not enjoying eachother's presence the way you used to, it starts to taint the realtionship and your friendship and although you want things to get better; they don't. I guess that is why I stared looking around and searching for alternatives. But hopefully we are on the road to recovery, being a whole new chapter in our lives as a couple.

I have to say this past year has been one of the best years of my life. I think Jackson and I have really growed as a couple and as individuals and it has helped us a lot. However I am getting rather tired and as I have work tomorrow (and then am going out to a party) I should have a bit of a sleep. Oh by the way, i am not sure if I have previously mentioned this - but I am just about to start doing work experience with a well-known magazine company and working directly with the marketing/advertising people. I am meeting them Monday which is pretty exciting, just before my first day back at uni.

Well that's it from me. Goodnight xoxo

Tonight!!!

Well tonight I'm going out with a lot of friends from uni and I'm really excited. I've decided I'll most likely wear my new dark-denim Lee jeans with a casual cute top - or my new shortish white dress with a small blue bow at my waist. I'm not sure yet but we're going to a pretty casual place so I don't wanna over-do it. Dave will be there, but he said he's only staying for like one beer cos he has a big day tomorrow - full day of work, then footy training, then Chili Peppers concert. I'm so jealous he gets to go to that concert!

Haven't really done anything too exciting today, just painted my nails a cool 'night light' pink. It's like this pink/purple colour, very cute. I wanna look hot tonight, but casual at the same time.

Anyways, its the big one year anniversary tomorrow night! I'm really excited. I've almost finnished Jackson's present. I have a photo being done today for the frame (the other side is the poem) I'm giving him. I hope he likes it and that it's not too mushy and corny for him. He better put it in his room anyways hehe! What sucks is that it's that time of the month for me, so even though we are staying at a hotel together in a gorgeous suite and it is our one year, we can't do the deed. Oh well, I don't really mind but he might be a little upset about it. Cuddling is still good though. He's the best person to cuddle.

Well I better get ready for tonight. Cya xoxo

What has been happening

Well my life is going well. Things with Dave are ok, but I definately think we'll just stick to friends. He seems really into his girlfriend and I do love Jackson. Plus it would be heaps awkward going out/hooking up with someone who's in all my classes!

My one year anniversary with jackson is coming up soon and I'm really looking forward to it. We are staying at a hotel on the night, which is five stars and has a massive pool. I think we are going out for dinner that night, which will be nice. I wonder what he has got me. I hope it's a gold necklace (not too expensive or anything). I figure we've been going out for a year, so I deserve a bit of jewellery. But I don't know if he will. He's not big into giving presents or anything and I haven't got any real jewellery from him before.

I've got him a memory card for his digital camera, a cocktail book for his cocktail party and a big frame which I'm putting in a photo of him & I as well as a poem I made for him. I know, I'm so cheesy, but it's cute and that's the kind of thing you're meant to do on special anniversaries.

Well today I'm just lazing around and I'm actually still in my pyjamas... although it's two pm. That's kinda gross actually. I'm about to have a shower though, so don't think I'm staying this way all day! I've been watching The Real Housewives, and repeats of Sex & The City. I've also been getting back into my artistic ways and am working on a drawing. It's looking pretty good if I do say so myself.

That's it from me today. I best be off. Ciao sexy xoxox
Luv me.

Search engine-mobil

Ok well this blog was a mistake but the site will not let me delete it grrrr! Well while I'm here y'all should check out the search engin to the right. It's great for easily going to sights such as myspace, hotmail, and of course the world famous u tube. Check them out and let me know what you think of them. You can also just have a browse of google for anything you like. Awesome! Love ya, Erin xoxox

Hungry

Oh I'm so very hungry. I feel like some French toast or a hot breakfast llike that. What's your favourite breaky? Post me, or give me a comment and let me know. I definately rate Mcdonalds breakies as being at the top. Mmm the pancakes and bacon & eggs so gooood! I love the McMuffin burgers too! Oh so good!

*What's your favorite breakfast! Please share sexy xoxox

To flirt or not to flirt?

It's an absolutely beautiful day today and the sun's brighter than I've seen it in a long time. Summer just finnished here last weekend but it looks like the weather doesn't want it to end, which is alright with me. I'm totally dying to go to to the beach one last time before it gets totally cold. So I'm just calling some mates to do just that.Dammit Mel, answer your phone!!! Oh everyone's asleep. It's only 9:40am so I don't blame them. I'd be asleep too if the sun didn't wake me up!

Anyways, as you well and truely know by now, I have a little interest in Dave. He keeps messaging me and now he wants to add me on msn. Am I allowed to innocently flirt a little back with him? Or am I meant to play it safe and just not... Will that seem kinda rude or should he expect me not to flirt back? Perhaps he has just a flirty nature, where he was just born that way to flirt with anything that he finds cute and has breasts. I don't want to be sneaky behind Jackson's back. I told him that Dave asked for my number, and we exchanged them and he didn't seem to mind much. He said he would expect I had my friends numbers, just as he has friends numbers from work etc.

But I haven't however told him we've been messaging eachother the way we have. He seems a little bit suspicious when I get a message or am messaging someone though. Am I a text slut? Am I secretly cheating on him via sms? I wonder if one would consider flirting through a message on a mobile actual cheating. It's not like I'm having phone sex with him or anything. Nothing of the sort in fact! I mean we do have kisses on the end of some of our messages and it's not unusual for him to call me babe occasionally.

Oh my lord, am I textualy cheating on Jackson?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

*Anyone reading please tell me your thoughts, whether they are for or against. Be brutally honest and tell me what you really think. I won't get offended.*

Well I better go have a cold shower to punnish myself and then get ready to go to the beach, well at least organise it for now. And No, Dave will not be invited. Just some of my old friends only!

Cya sexy! Luv Erin

A fun little weekend turned to chaos

Last weekend was really fun. Jackson and I went to the South Coast iver the Easter break and it was just beautiful. We didn't even fight and had a lot of lovin' which is always good hehe. The place was heaven, a cute country home right on the beach. I couldn't have been happier.

But then Dave messaged me...and I couldn't help but think of him. It's so annoying. He's like the snake offering Eve the apple in the Garden of Eden. He has been messaging me ever since, and I have admittedly been replying. Last night we had this big text session and must have sent eachother like 15 messages in a row. I feel really bad, cos I'm not some horrible person just looking for a reason to leave Jackson. I actually really love him (Jackson that is). I couldn't imagine myself breaking up with him for anyone. But at the same time I've found myself just thinking about Dave and what it would be like to kiss him. He gives me the impression he's keen on me too, and maybe just maybe he wants to kiss me too.

I feel like I can talk to Dave about everything and I'm afraid that I'm slowly falling for him. Last night we spoke about Jackson and my problem. Although I think Jackson is a great guy and I really care for him... I'm not as sexually attracted to him as I used to be. I mean I still find him hot and we can still make love, I'm just scared I am starting to see him more as a friend. I totally like Dave though. He always puts x's on the end of his messages, calls me babe, and even offered to teach me surfing. Oh I have to stop thinking of him before I ruin everything argghhh!